Ya right, left, up and down...

Boooooooooooooo~

ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOP lah hor. =.=

It'z getting boring already, nah...same joke. Retarded joke. How thingz wanna turn out to be, i don't really need or want to understand and know why. No matter how we hope for or on, is not gonna work out. Coz we alwayz wanted to let otherz to know our stand and how we feel, but no one seriously willing to be the first to realise and put ourselvez in other people shoez. Sometime i really wonder how long more i can't endure this retarded feeling about everything...ha, i guess it will be never ending to me...because i had been taking thingz too seriously to my heart and i'm not really fully using my army of brain cellz to think.

Jealousy and petty...what an ugly feeling for those. It really make feel ugly, never once liked it.

AHHHHHHHHH~ NNNNNNNBBBBBBBBB....!!! star star square square, argh!!! I'm so sorry and pity to people who passby and read my blog. Hopefully you guyz don't really fully understand what i meant and affected to anyone of you who having problemz with relationshipz and friendshipz=). Now i understand that some people come in and goes off in our very own life...Sadly but yes.

Ok, enough ranting.

Ah ya, gonna do some serious saving. Shall skip my useless classes for some dayz and earn abit more. Hopefully i save up to the amount that i can use it on. I wish i can go somewhere nice with my sidd bf before getz into army=). But don't know he can save up or not =.=, ooopz =P. Ah, and to forget about the taiwan trip with BS13=). Hopefully we can make it there together=D.

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A song to my love. =)

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=(...

*not really very happy now...*

Yaya, i hate how i feel now. Yesterday put such a loving post but now today i gonna rant on my blog at this post. I don't how i should put this...maybe is my fault that i didn't asked you what are you doing over the phone or tell you that i want to talk to you. I just don't know, i just felt that you're still wanna find wayz to win your gamez and not done with it like you gonna make sure you gonna win at that stage. I'm alright if you tell me like "dear, wait ar...i try again see whether i'm able win the fucking gay shit on my PSP now", and i won't feel like you're not free to talk. Suddenly silence over phone, i thought you still doing something but i heard you starting to play the game again...at first when i heard it, i was like haha somebody is still not giving up but........AH WHATEVER. I don't know whether because i was also on the lappy checking out my CSI thingy thatz why you think you may able to play your psp while waiting when you think i may stuck on it quite long. I don't wanna know lah, i'm too grumpy to think and even talk now....

Ahhh fuck but i don't wanna get and sound demanding again. I really feeling abit tooo sian about this matter. This is serious not a freaking deal, but i still upset about it. COZ I WANT TO HAVE A HAPPY CHAT YOU OVER THE PHONE NOT TALKING TO YOU UNHAPPILY AND I SERIOUSLY DON'T LIKE IT AND I KNOW SO ARE YOU TOO!!! i hate it when you start apologizing over the phone when you start to notice it.=(.

STUPID IDIOT DUMB DUMB X(

Stupid handz having plaster again...=.=

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You and Me...

Haha, just one and only picture post for today.

May the force by with us~ Love you, sidd/Darth Vader=)).

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Short short very short post....

Hi *yawnz*.

Damn, i told my bf that i'm not blogging but i ended up to blog. LOL.

Hmm....ok, i would like to say is up till now from the start of the July...this month suckz big time. Fooking emotion torture for this month. Very bad situation pop out, and it'z so late some more. Never seriously cried out that badly as before. Impact was very terrible, seriously what kind bad joke is this. Never been such a let down that badly because of just one mistake which can be prevented had been over seen by me and bf who is blaming himself that he did not notice it. I was so ready for it, and now this fooking damn joke just pop out and said "BOO!!! you're dead!". How nice of it har...so what, i still have go on. I'm not gonna stop by anything because of this silly stupid matter which was badly handled by me. Fook it and fook off...

I'm not gonna give up, i gonna fight for what i want.

Alright then, gonna sleep now. Tomorrow gonna go UNIVERSAL STUDIO with my birthday girl, mei luan=D. Haha, OYASUMI~

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