Beauty (him) and the Beast (me)...LOLI'm here to blog again loh...~
Damn don't know how many donkey dayz and weekz since i last blog. LOL. Haha i'm quite impress actually...coz i'm still blog like around one time in month to continue make my this pathetic blog alive X). Someone should be still STALKING my blog since he know that my blog is dead for quite some time, and must be happy now coz i'm back to business, LOL.
Yaya, there'z quite of number of thingz happened and learnt for the passed few weekz. Like example the nasty one was got into a very intense/upset matter with my bf. Ho-ho, thatz was "quite" a scene we made at that time. Damn, it was like i was unhappy with him about the smoking matter and treated his cigarette as his precious, and i started to felt freaking not happy coz he didn't really make any difference about it then i shut him out without telling him any thing when he kept asking me 'what'z wrong' 'why i'm like this', ended he started to feel helpless and got angry too. He walked his own way, i walked mine....nah, you seriously think walking off and leave the matter like will help us in anything? uh-uh nope, and at all. Ended up we cried, vented, throw everything out, sayang-ed, understand-ed, hugged and kissed. Tadah~ settled, case closed.
Luckily we only just reacted that way coz we were unhappy. I really don't wish to have a bad argument with him. I rather disturb him, make fun of him, tickle him, joke around with him and love him=). Every single person had their own stress and problem. Listen and understand or try standing on their position to think. Not every thing are complicated as it seemz, but firstly of all you should have a clear mind to think of wayz to deal thingz with.
Enough talking about my BGR thingy liaozxzx. LOLXD~ Hmm, ok...fook i remember something=.=...TODAY IS MUM'Z BIRTHDAY!!! GODDAMN IT...!!! AND I TOTALLY FORGOTTEN ABOUT IT, WTFFF....!!! ahhh damn it, cake is needed for sure.
OK gonna cool down...hmm i should i blog....hmm.
Ok, hmm ok. I don't know what should i say or how should i put this. You asked me why i had nothing to say or talk about when i met up with you girlz?? Is it whether i never meet up with them quite awhile??...I don't think is because i had too long never meet up with them which make me had nothing to talk or say to them. No matter how long you never been meet up with your friend, especially friendz which u called "buddy", there will still be same bonding as how it used to be like last time. People may change but not friendship. My love for my friendz will be still the same, unless it had been damage, hurt, misunderstand or betray. Maybe i just will never understand about anything coz i never been told or said before. My mouth and anger will alwayz say 'i don't care' 'it'z none of my business' or whatsoever reason, but i know for sure no matter what i still care. No one really actually wanna ask why, so i kept myself quiet. I been hurt before so i don't mind carry on being like this. Misunderstanding in friendship hurtz. I hate to avoid and also hate people to avoid too. If you truly treat me as your friend, ask me out and tell me how you feel me about. Up to you whether you wanna scream throat out but no vulgarity coz i will make sure you get it too. Simple as that, easy like ABC. I will listen but i can't guarantee i will change coz thatz me but i can try adjust and be better=).
I know after saying all this, you may think like it is totally no link about why i never talk to them. Seriously i don't know why i didn't talk, and those were what i feel, think and believe.
ARGH AHHHHH ENOUGHHHHHHH, i seriously hate problem=.=. Haiyo, how to do...thingz happened already and cannot be undone too. Blah blah blah...argh sibei wu liao lah hor. =.=
Ok lah, gonna sleep now. Schooling tomorrow, aww. LOL, i'm a good girl and i go school ON TIME...XD okok don't wanna fool around in my blog liao. OYASUMI~^^
to be continued...
