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I really what the fuck i'm trying to do.

This is stupid, i can't even handle my fucking emotion properly. Nice, i affected the another party. Good job ar, liew ruixian. Go and bang the damn wall seriously hard as my reward eh.

Sorry that i still can't express myself well enough...
Sorry that i still can distract by one eyed monster easily...
Sorry that i alwayz slience inside the phone and saying "nothing" "i don't know" when there'z something...
Sorry that i lied...
Sorry...

I don't know how to put this...but i'm really happy to have you as my bf coz you make me feel i'm a lucky girl who have a bf like you=) ily, yoshi nori.

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Nanananananana....~

Na na na na na na na na na na na na....~ ROFL.

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Yosh~

Back to blog again although i blogged not long ago, lol.

This few dayz the weather was freaking cooling and cold at the same time. Too cooling until it makez me wanna sleep longer inside my bed XD. I wonder how does it really feel like staying in a place filled with snow and cold icy air...cold eh, but i think somehow it may calm me. A place with icy cold air, treez and grassez all filled with snow on them and greyish feel when it start to snow, and i can see myself breathing out smoke from my mouth...calm and quiet. I think it will be nice if there'z a swing there for me to sit=).

There'z something i been thinking for the whole day today....How does it feel when someone laugh at your pain and mistake, and keep saying about your pain and mistake and to turn it to a joke and laugh until they doesn't care how does that person feel??

Sometime i really wonder do those people really know what they are trying to do, or to say what they are doing actually. Do they ever had this kind of shit happened on them or they just wanna pick on those people who they think they can pick on. Frankly i had to confess i really did those shit before, but it taste nice at all coz whenever i think back, it taste freaking horrible. I finally understood why and what makez me did those shit....some joke are not funny as it seem after repeating it over and over again. It may cost a huge damage on otherz and makez your mouth stinkz at the same time. Understand?? Don't understand, then i shall wish you good luck then. People will learn lesson after they met with their "classroom with nice looking teacher" in it.

Haiya, come on liew ruixian, how many brain cell do you wanna kill seriously=.=. But i won't fuck my own life coz i still able walk around, earning money, talk, shout, scream and my family with me, staying cozy in my home=). This is my life, i shall have it in my own way and make my life a colourful one=)

Ok i seriously gonna stop blogging man. LOL, gonna bathe now. LOL chiao-su~

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it doesn't matter anymore...

Hmm, few more dayz and it'z gonna be a brand new year again loh. Yawnz eh?? Whatever=/.

Yeah as usual, hopefully next year will be brighter year than this year. Gonna let those nonsense perish with this last few dayz of this year. Fook it and thank you. It'z doesn't matter anymore...i sick of everything i'm experiencing and i had myself burst out at my peak of my limitz. Thankz, i'm still don't appreciate everything that i got. I feel so fake, i can't smile normally i used to. I shall hide myself up and cool down. I'm ok to be with myself, and outside the world, there is other thingz i can do and work of, and maybe i can get to meet some interesting thingz and peepz=). Gonna do thingz in my own way, not following what otherz told me to do. Hate me or love me, ya right anyway i don't care anymore...i say it, i mean it.

Ha, someone had been some where nice for two dayz loh. Oh ya, and today is the 1st day, after i attached to someone for 2monthz++, having my lovely off day at home and being a couch potato for a day=D. LOL, i think if he read this, he should be say, "Okay loh...~" HAHAHA, ok lah poor dude alwayz kena bullied and teased by me X). Hopefully he'z having fun there with his family and being a good boy there too. Someone should know what i meant lah hor. HEEHEE!!!

Ok lah, play with my gamez and watch videoz again. Chiao-su~

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Rot, Melt and Freeze...

Huuuuuuuuu~

HA, let me see....ah ha been staying at my grampy place for 5 dayz already. Ok today'z weather is freaking hot and i'm melting right now=.=, not like last few dayz the weather was freezing cold. LOL, hot and cold eh.

Freaking happy coz i got to sleep alot and get back all my sleep i should had. HOHOHO~ i'm a happy girl now=).

Been at my aunt place for last two dayz. Seeing my relative busy arranging and doing all the wedding stuff, buffet and busying making the "wedding punishment" (LOL!!! coz they also got use wasabi XD). For the buffet thingy, i nearly died=.=. My aunt and uncle keep ask me to eat eat eat when i already like rising the white flag and surrender, LOL. Funny eh, when i'm in sg there'z people trying to stop me for eating too much but when i'm in m'sia there'z people trying to ask me to eat more when i already cannot make it. LOL weird to the max.

There'z another funny thing too, whenever i took out my apple-kun to play some gamez, there will be one swamp of kidz surround me up and ask me alotz of question about the game or say how they know and play the gamez. LOL, i didn't know iphone is a magnet to attract kidz XD.

2monthz loh and still counting on...hohoho~ someone should be counting down now. I will be back, LOLXD.

Okok stop here then, chiao-su~

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BOO~

Boo!!!

Ok time check: 0233am.

LOL, i still awake when i supposed to get myself ready to enter my lalaland on my fluffy bed-o. Anyway i just ended my call with my love=). And i must try harder to concentrate on our call for every phone call, hell yeah. *roar*


Ho-ho, yesterday i had a funny 21st birthday surprise from my lovely cliquez, The Usual Four and The Ni Family. LOL, it was a simple celebration held at the Sky Garden at my area. I really did enjoy it=) Thankz for the poladroid and the lovely funny scrapebook.

I wonder what will happen this few dayz...hmm=/

Okok gonna stop here and get my ass to sleep. OYASUMI~!!!

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Puffy Love...

Ha!!! tsk...another boring feeling day again=.=

I wondering why i thinking those not so "important" stuff when i should be ignoring it and happily doing my own stuff. Hmm, weird eh but i just can't help it. It really does bother me, and feel fooking irritated by it too. And tell me, do anyone seriously know what i'm talking about and how i feel at all this time??

No matter how hard a person wanna try, there'z still thingz in the wayz trying to stop you and not allowing you to make it happened. TADAH~ congratulation ar *throwing colour paper all over*.

Choose one - will listen to both side of the story or just listen to one side of the party, then make your point of view on it?? and why??

Oh ya, thankz to someone for the cream puff^^. Ok, i will stop here then. Chiao-su~

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Lily Darling~...

free loot given by jollybean aunty^^

Huuhuu~

November loh...~

Ha, getting nearer each day to my boring looking birthday although i gonna celebrate my 21st birthday this year=.=. Sian eh, what to do leh...i really can't think of anything at all, i only know is i wish, hope and want my damn birthday to be a fun and joyful one this year with every single friendz of mine and not to forget my love one and the Liew Family. How i really can i seriously make it happen in this short period of time...stuipd me=.=. Ahhh nevermind...

How come i can't express out thingz that how i feel when i freaking happy and loved by someone, and let him know i really do happy to be with him and love him too....eeeeeeeeeeeee aiyoyo i really very bad and suckz at this man, argh freaking stiff to the max=.=. Poor lily....LOLOLOL~!!!! anyway i try some other form of wayz to let that someone know, ok?? XD

Ok lah gonna finish up my food else someone will be dying soon. LOL!!! ok chiao-su^^

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Yosh~

Ok firstly of all i would to like say is....i miss my blog. LOL!!! HAHAHA, ok i really never had time to use my sis lappy to update myself and blog all kind of rubbish when i used to. LOL, cannot really blame me ar coz my life got alittle bit changez and additional of sugar and spice. LOL, hao lian siol~ XD

Ha, what should i blog neh?? Hmm...don't know still got any weird passerby or stalker view my damn old outdated stupid looking blog. LOL, haiya do you think i seriously care. Sian ar anyway, see my damn blog looking sooooooo boring.

Ok lah, i think i stop here then. Gonna call someone loh~ XD




*picz updated on 30 Octorber 2o10.

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Hihi=)...

HEEHEEHEE....~

Goodbye stupid September, and HELLLOOOO OCTOBER....~ Ok, i freaking late to say those but you think i care, HA!

Weee, this the 1st October post for 2010 man. LOL, as usual should not miss out a month, just post any rubbish or whatsoever to update can liao. Change song for my bloggy, post nonsense again....blah blah blah ok stop, what i should i blog actually?? LOL, ok i really don't know XD.

Good thingz really do happened on me=), but nasty looking gloomy thingz really like to happened on me too=/. How i supposed to stop thinking when thingz i got to saw and heard from?? I really don't like these shit at all....it freaking me out at the same time. Everything really happen to me were all freaking new. Fear until that bad is really my first time....why i fear until that bad?? Think before asking me or don't even bother to ask me if you really never think at all.

Hmm now i'm recalling back some thingz, some stuffz really made me laugh. Gosh, does it really everyone lifez and thingz happened on them really look exactly the same to every single one people living in these damn earth?? Seriously, i don't and can't agree at all. Thingz which happened on us got their own reasonz, sometimez it may due to our own cause too. What should i suppose to do actually...come on man i maybe stupid or dumb in some wayz but i'm not a person who don't know what thingz are on. I can feel, i know somethingz are still no right. But when i try to make it right, there'z not even a chance given to me to let me work on. Are you seriously happy right now?? No, i don't see any happiness. All are just dumb fog which can't hide thing properly. Say only nia, who don't know. But sometimez when saying some thingz really can hurt someone, and don't push people away when they care and concern....

Haiz, this is stupid anyway. I don't why i must be treated in that way...i really don't like it, and it really creep me out...and please come back to normal, please.

Ok, gonna stop here liao. Better head to my bed now and sleep. Gonna wake up later see my parent off to the airport at 5 =.=...hahaha OYASUMI~!!!!

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=.=...

"How could this happened again...."

Ha, what thing?? That thing, this thing, what thing...whatever lah hor.

I hate myself man, i really don't understand why does it have to be turn out to be this way...is it i too weak or something else?? I really don't understand it at all. What i can say is, "I feel freaking terrible and sad...". It was sweet for those moment, but when you know you can't even get it, it become bitter...really very bitter. To suffer for the second time, in a different way, the impact still very painful, you know. LOL. Why is kind of shit alwayz happen on meeeeeee~ =(

Dear God, please tell me who is that stupid slow mr right or left really willing to care about me!!!!!!! LOL, i must be really crazy liao man.

Ok, i might be quite stupid and sad right now...BUT i will be back for sure coz this kind of rubbish i still can handle it. HAHAHA~

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I wonder...

Yosh~

Nyahaha, time check: 3.45am. LOL, what the hell~ i'm still awake and blogging when i should be in the bed sleeping. I'm so dead later in the afternoon man, still gonna be a alarm clock after waking up later and to wake that someone to wake up too. LOL, so i really gonna post a short fast post X).

Ha, i think i didn't blog for quite a long time. Kinda lazy somehow, hmm maybe there'z nothing post about too. LOL, boring eh?? What to do, unless there'z something nice and shocking happen on me but nothing scary at the same too, LOL. Oh ya, 9 more dayz to Genting trip with The Ni Family. YESH, but the sad part is not full member going coz jy couldn't make it=(. Hopefully we can go other trip to other placez together=).

Huuhuu~ i think blog till here then. Gonna sleep loh coz flying kitez later, hopefully is gonna be real freaking fun, weeeeee~

Ok, OYASUMI~^^

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Hmm...

YOSH~!!!

Hmm, i think i had 4dayz straight "off" eh...naiz, what so nice about it when your mind is bother by other stuff which can't make you relax at all. Yeah, i'm damn freaking sorry that i just only SMS instead of CALLING for my absence for my work. Yes, once again i make myself cry again. Till now i still having a terrible headache, my face is still frowning due to the achez. I seriously know don't what to do, i know there'z not much people to work for yesterday but my body doesn't allow me to work. Yeah, now my manager definitely is fucking disappointed but i really doesn't mean it. How to say, i can tell there'z no way for me to explain anyway. All i can do is cry and apologise...frankly speaking i don't even care about this job at all. So please give up hope on me, i only just wanna do thingz which i was order to do. Simple as that, nothing else. Fire me off, if i still carry on doing thingz which you hate it at all. I know you are fucking fed up with me, already.

This few day thingz happen alot. I don't know but this suckz. All are negative thingz which can make a human get sick easily and have lotz of unhappiness and sorrows. Who will eventually like all this shit happen on them?? Unless you are some sort people who like to pray in the middle of the night, drawing star/circle look alike on the floor or wall and cutting yourself or doing small sacrifice at the same time=/ Bodoh, right?? What can i say, these are part of the life too. Feel from it and learn from it.

Fooking annoying post, again. Sorry to sore you guy'z eyez again, and by the way thankz for concern from you guyz although i was pissed by some of the comment i heard from, but still thankz, i really do appreciate. =)

Oh ya, I WANNA HAVE A CYCLING OUTING for the next the Ni Family meet up...is like so long time ago that we last cycle. LOL, i really hope everyone agree and all attend too. Hopefully i get the good new^^.

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Creepy eh, but quite addictive=)






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DX...

Huuhuu~


Gosh, i'm freaking awake at this hour when i should be on my comfy bed-o sleeping. LOL you think i care?? Of coz not lah XD...

Super happy right now, coz i got to download some new song to updated my playlist^^. Ok, thatz too lame to happy though, but don't know why just feel so happy o.O...i think i must be mad already. LOL~ Oh ya, can't wait to have shopping later at the afternoon, together shopping partner BOSS~!!! LOL, oh ya and JANE YOONG LIYUN if you happen to read my blog, you better get your ass to meet us later for dinner. I don't care whether you have no money or whatsoever, just come and thatz it. LOLOL~!!!

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Hmm, anyway there'z some thingz getting fishy. I don't know what is all about and what'z going on, i think my guessing should be somewhere around there...hmm if it really is, i gonna say is some thingz are just really very simple, not very complicated and i can confirm thatz not the thingz you're thinking. =) Else i fear thingz will get very messy as it seem, coz i don't wish that scenario to happen in my life again=/...

Ok seriously, i really go and get myself to sleep or i will be dead later=.=...OYASUMI~^^

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slice of life...

Naiz...

Once again, i done something stupid again....Shit that paper and fuck my careless-ness. This time is really my goddamn fault, and the mess is bigger than i can think of. I think i smell some bbq cuttlefish...and i'm not sure whether i can surive for tomorrow. This is bad, really really bad. Hopefully i didn't hai dao otherz who are not involved. Nevermind, i knew this will come sooner or later....=/

*yawns*

Hmm, stayed at home for the whole day, only went out to get some food to stuff myself in the afternoon. Sometime staying at home is really nice, you do everything in slow motion and rot-ing in the house lazily. Even blogging right now, i feel freaking lazy and relax.

Sometime all those standing everyday in my life while working, really make me feel freaking worn out coz it causez me some sorez and painz on my back, waist, shoulderz, and my neck. Frankly speaking, these stiffness that lies on me are really torture. Itz had there since i started working long timez and hourz at ToriQ. Haiz, i can't blame anyone to this coz the place i'm working in is having shortage of manpower, not much of suitable peepz for this kind of job, especially nowaday people only want to work on nice easy placez. Coz this job to them is a torture to them. Ha, this stupid anyway...No pain no gain. With all this unhappiness, problem, complaint and blah blah blah thingy, which make people to stress of, going on in my life...i still choose to carry on walking. Life is not alwayz that sweet as you can think of coz you will still met to something unpleasant in your life. These are just some only, there'z alotz more which you can't imagine of....

Boring eh?? I think type too much theory looking thingy on top there. LOL, blogging this shit out sometime really make me feel better but making otherz having hard time to read at the same time. X)


Ok, gonna continue youtube-ing loh~

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崇拜 - 梁静如

你的姿態 你的青睞
我存在在你的存在
你以為愛 就是被愛
你揮霍了我的崇拜

我活了 我愛了 我都不管了
心愛到瘋了 恨到酸了就好了
可能的 可以的 真的可惜了
幸福好不容易 怎麼你卻不敢了呢

我還以為我們能 不同於別人
我還以為不可能的 不會不可能

你的姿態 你的青睞
我存在在你的存在
你以為愛 就是被愛
你揮霍了我的崇拜

風箏有風 海豚有海
我存在在我的存在
所以明白 所以離開
所以不再為愛而愛
自己存在在你之外

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MINIONS~!!!

HA!!!

Watched Despicable Me with my sis last night at the Cathay Cineleisure. I'm so going to grab one minion to hang it on my bag man. LOL, this is a super CUTE movie lah~ X)

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Speechless...

I don't get it, why does must thingz should turn out to be that way after my manager got us together, had a mini meeting and trying to sort thingz out??

And yeah, so what i really feel upset anout the stuff i heard from my manager, but seriously is there a need to tell every single thingz to your wife and making EVERY single turn out to be so complicated like there'z something fishy or funny is going on. Knnbccb, this is fucking annoying. You tell everything to your damn wife, then your damn wife, who also my mum'z manager, went to tell my mum, AND FINALLY my mum come back home ask me this and that.....FUCK YOU LAH, FUCK YOU ALL SERIOUSLY. I hate you you you.......................

Deleted. I wrote this shit when i freaking emotional at the same time. Sorry to those who see this nasty post. This is just some anger post nia=) - updated on 11july2010.

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Huuhuu~

AHAHAHA~

Boring eh?? Heeheeheeheeheehee.

Kao, the weather is freaking shiok to the max. Freaking coooolddd...~ brrrrr. Nice, i like^^. Hohoho, can wear jacket loh. Ok, got nothing to blog seriously. LOL.

Last night rot-ing session with the Ni Family was fun. LOL.

Ok, i go downstair buy tibbitz loh...~^^

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Hope to Hopeless...

I really don't know what to blog now at this hour. I should be on my bed sleeping...but somehow i had been bothered by some thingz which make me can't sleep early.

I had enough already. No matter how much i think or complaint about it, i still don't dare to do anything. Feel freaking lousy for the pass few dayz, but right now i feel damn fine after calming myself down. I think i'm too freaking lame to have that kind of feeling, and yeah so what i did give up denying and said "yes, i really did like..." what so ever. Fook it lah, Liew Ruixian. This is seriously so lame, like making myself happy for no reasons.

Anyway i should jolly well forget it since i doesn't even dare to do anything, some more he doesn't seem react to anything and lately he seem to like bo chup. Seeking a person attention is really very hard, especially the person you really like or wat so ever thingy. Ok, frankly speaking i sad and tired to do anything. Why must i be the one doing this shitty thing? When will it SERIOUSLY REALLY be my turn when someone i love to know, wantz to know me too and doing thingz to get my attention or even chat with me first??

Fook my life, anyway. This post is getting freaking despo and i really need get out of here to sleep. Annoying me=.=

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